"Dance with the fear" and "Everyone should blog every day" is what Seth Godin said as I was watching his interview on The Futur , a YouTube channel. So, that is why I decided to start blogging today, after months of being unsure about writing down my thoughts since my strengths lie in evaluating numbers and solving business problems through design.
So what exactly does that mean:
Today I started the slow dance with my fears: self-doubt, judgement, and those red pen marks that were always on my writing assignments (so please excuse my grammar).
You might be wondering why …
Why was it so hard to write when I felt like life was full of ideas to write about? My biggest deterrent was self-doubt. I felt like what I had to say didn’t register with anyone. Not because my thoughts weren’t important, but because people just didn’t take to heart what I said.
Do you have this problem too?
When people ask questions or search for answers they already have a preconceived notion in mind of the answer they want to hear. But, the easy/convenient or pretty response is usually not what came out of my mouth to answer their question.
The worst part about that ..
It basically meant that people ignored my response and continued their search for an answer.
Why bother then?
Because that is the nature of a person who wants to be helpful.
In the past I was left feeling like my responses weren’t good enough, the answer didn’t make sense, or it needed to have more depth and meaning.
So, I read, watched videos, listened to podcast then started trying to come up with, what I thought were, better responses.
Yet, after all of that my responses were still brushed aside. Which continued to add to my self-doubt about voicing my opinion and writing anything of value. After more research and life experience I figured out why my responses were falling on deaf ears.
Do you want to know why?
I learned that I am here to believe in myself, my knowledge, and my research. I am here to tell my friends, family, and even strangers what I know or feel. But it is not my job to convince others of anything, that is there job.
I started valuing my thoughts and responses to problems. And I stopped trying to convince other people that my responses mattered.
Over the years I found that acknowledging a question with a response is enough. Even if that response is ‘That is a good question, but I don’t know the answer to it.’
To sum it up:
The whole point of this article is to tell you how and why I started “dancing with my fear(self-doubt)”. The “how” is, I now give voice to my knowledge and I’m content knowing that I provided valuable information. The ”why” is because I want to help solve problems, that is one of the challenges in life that makes me happy.